Showing posts with label gossip. Show all posts
Showing posts with label gossip. Show all posts

Sunday, August 28, 2016

i am a gossip


it started out as a harmless, giggly conversation.
A silly moment. 
And then all of the sudden my friend looked at me and said,
"Elissa, you do gossip a lot." 

I choked.
I was the only Christian in that room
The only one with the responsibllity to be a bright light in a darkened world.

"It's not nessicarly a bad thing..." She went on.
But the words cut down through all the layers and hit my core.

I am a gossip.

These words taste like vinegar comming out of my mouth.
They rock around in my brain,
Tumbling into every thought.

They cut through my crap and cockiness in which I stood before God last night.

For I am a gossip.

And I hate it.
I hate this ugliness inside of me,
This sword I have deeply misused.

I hate that I'm seen as a gossip to some non-Christian friends.
I hate that I bring shame to the name of Jesus on this earth.
I hate it.

For I am ashamed of this sin.
I am naked in my inadequacies.
And aware of my failure.

And Jesus knows.
He knows me as I sit with my two little gossip buddies,
Yet he loves me fully.
He knows me as I keep record of wrong,
Yet he loves me endlessly.
He hears me tarnish his gift,
Yet he still loves me.
Perfecly.
Completely.
More then I could ever ask or imagine.

For our God loves us so greatly that he will never change the depth of his love.
In any moment.
In any action.
In any situation.

For we, my brothers and sisters, are loved by a very big God.
Bigger then any shame.



Sunday, March 1, 2015

Au Revoir Potins!

(Goodbye gossip in French, for those of you who aren't in French I) 


So Lent started a week and a half ago, (just to make you who forgot feel bad). And instead of giving up something lame, I decided to give up something that is lame from it's very root.
gossip.
I really hate talking about talking about gossip. And being in highschool, it's something that pretty much everyone is hypocritical about. Me too. I enjoy hearing that juicy piece of information about others. I see something weird, and I want to tell someone. I seriously am genuinely nosy about things I really don't need to know about.

So yep. No gossip is coming out of my mouth. And it's hard you guys! I currently have a piece of information that I want to ask a friend about, but I can't. That isn't something I'm proud of. Gossip is fun- it gives a feeling of connection and belonging. But it is so dangerous- it's leaves scars deep in others hearts. It's not a coveted trait. And it is not fun being gossiped about.

Ladies, we have a bad reputation for being gossips, and I've helped create that reputation. I hope and pray that I can change this in myself. I am striving to look for the good in people who annoy the crap out of me. I'm trying to assume the best of others, and understand their hearts. It's hard- so hard!
But lets change.
Let's overcome this battle we fight

-Elissa
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