Monday, May 1, 2017

we don't get pauses

On the rare occasion that my mom and I fight (wink wink), 
there is often one, if not more, pauses.
We're big pausers.

It usually goes like:
blahhhhh blahhhh
blahhhhh 
*volume increases* 
blahhhhhh
yell shout yeellllllll
I'M GETTING TOO MAD I NEED TO TAKE A BREAK
OKAY!
OKAY, FINE!

And then I (because it's usually me who needs to pause) storm off and
a) cry
or
b) think of evil comebacks.

And while I sit there trying to think about why this is such a big deal (clue: 98.99% of the time it's not), my mom comes in peace and we try to figure out where our communication went wrong.
In a calm(ish) manner.
Sometimes we take more pauses, sometimes we don't.


You know what I realized about this?
It's really hard to hit the pause button in real life.



Almost every day someone asks me for a detailed power-point of the next ten years of my life. Usually I respond with one of my three canned answers.
And every time, I'm subtly reminded that I don't know what-the-heck I'm going to do.
Which is fine.
It's fine.  

But I just want to pause this whole stupid growing-up thing!
I don't want to take the SAT on Saturday.
I don't want to make a list of collages to visit.
I don't want to be responsible and grow up schedule my own appointments.
I don't want to face conflict on my own!


But as much as I'd like it, there are no pauses in life.
We can stop, think and take a walk, but the clock keeps ticking.
The music keeps playing.
And there are no pauses.

"You mean to say that you wrote this just to tell me that the world keeps spinning and just to keep freaking out?!?!?!?"

Err, kinda.

But I also want to remind you (and me) that we don't know the plot.
We don't design the timeline.
He does.
And He knows when we need time-outs better than we do.

So before you keep yelling, take a breath.
And remember:
His strength.
His pauses.
Because he's got it.
He's got you.

17 comments:

  1. Great reminder <3 great post!

    Ellie
    www.uniquelyyou1.blogspot.com

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  2. Lovely blog! Just followed ;D
    -Michaila
    the Wonderkept life
    lovelypinkduckshome.blogspot.com

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    1. Thanks Michaila!! You're awesome!
      I'm excited to go check out your blog:)

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  3. Your posts are always so amazing and inspiring, Elissa! I follow by email and rarely have a chance to comment, but I read all of your posts and love your blog so much. Thank you for being so wonderful.
    This post especially touched my heart! <3 You are an incredible writer. xx
    Rock on.

    Sophy

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    1. Hey Sophy-
      this totally made my day! Thanks so so so much for leaving a comment and letting me know:) You are too kind.
      xoxox

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  4. This is such a great reminder! Thank you for this!

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  5. Wow, yes. I was just thinking about this today. Thanks for the reminder, and I hope everything goes well for you - the SAT and looking for a college. (Also I totally get not wanting to schedule your own appointments!) xx

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    1. Thanks Jessica!
      And yeah- scheduling appointments is the worst!

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  6. Oh an awesome post! I know where you're coming from - I have a job interview coming up (my first) and suddenly adulting life is hitting me pretty hard. I pray everything goes well for you! Keep shining the light of Jesus! <3

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    1. Thanks!
      Woah, I hope your interview goes well; I'm sure you'll be awesome!

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  7. Thank you so much for this <3 I definitely needed it. And hit me up if you want to cry about the SAT because DREADING THAT UGH XD

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    1. YOU ARE ALSO TAKING THE SAT ON SATURDAY WHAAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTT

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  8. Argh, why is life so hard??? Glad to know I'm not the only one wishing for a time out session.

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  9. UGHHHHH this is so relATABLE. Thanks for this post-- definitely helped me get some perspective as well as kind of let out my current frustations with my un-pausable life while reading. Love this!
    xx
    steph

    strictlystephanie.blogspot.com
    stephaniewscribbles.blogspot.com

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