A very close friend committed suicide two weeks ago.
Two weeks that contained years, yet I still have to remind myself of the horror that took place.
You guys, I am completely shattered.
My heart is broken, and I'm semi-numb to reality.
This is a mess.
A tragic, dark mess.
I'm struggling to form words, much less coherent thoughts.
I have a pile of school work glaring at me.
I keep waking up throughout the night.
I keep glancing and thinking I see her.
Her dutch braids.
Eyelashes that make you rethink your life.
Smile that lets up the room.
But then I remember her perfect body laying in the casket.
And the reality punches all over again.
You guys, we are shadows here on earth.
Your life contains infinite value.
You are precious.
And there are far
better things ahead.