Saturday, July 30, 2016

sitting in this weird thing called silence

Silence breathes on my tired face.
My head hurts from the previous days of sleep deprivation due to early mornings and little quiet.

The mission trip was amazing and powerful, yet I'm not ready to form words. 
Jayna's visit was a total blast, but far to short. 
It's scary that I might not see her until we're both in collage. 
I'm not ready for our friendship to go back into a screen. 

I lay in the quiet, not sure where to begin.
So I ask God to gently unpack me. 
Unpack my emotion,
My memories,
My guilt. 
To sort through this with Him, that it may bring Him glory. 

I don't know what to think or feel or do or say. 
Yet in this quiet, I know to listen.
Listen to His whisper saying, "Rest in me. Feel with me. And do not fear; for you can do all things through me, who strengthens you."


Thursday, July 14, 2016

the QUOTE TAG


The chair massages my back,
while the skin on my feet is saturated with lotion.
I ask the pedicurist to stop right before she removes my callouses, as they prevent many painful blisters from my pointe shoes.

She replies, "You no boyfriend?"

"No, no boyfriend."

i tag

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thanks for the tag Vanessa! (go check her out!)

Monday, July 11, 2016

miles


Change is blowing all around me.
Twisting and turning,


taking people and things I never thought it would. 

Some days the miles feel short.
Numbers on a screen, spliced by moving lips.

Not today.
Today the miles are long. 
They taunt me with their size, their altitude, their area. 
You feel very far.

And although I know where you are,
and what your doing,
the texts don't cut the distance today.
My heart is not numb.

The inches feel very long today.

Saturday, July 2, 2016

summer bucket list


see a movie
have a picnic
make ice cream
hike once a week
journal at the ocean
have a book reading day
kayak 
scrapbook
have a bonfire
have a game night
meet friends for lunch
get a pedicure (finally!!!) 
visit grandma for a weekend
make a pinterest dinner
babysit 
go to the lake
take a bike ride
have a photo shoot
have morning quiet time
take a day trip to the islands